Feel.

This.  



















I feel nothing. 
Nothing feels me.

What is humanity?
What is trust?

One day you will realise.
One day you will understand.

Why hate?
Why love?

I love sweet smiles.
I love stories.
Please make me feel.

I drove to his house, driving the very awesome Porsche. It's a date, I told him. Nobody rings the door bell these days. I called him. "Hey, get down now."

"Nice car", he said. Yes. Of course I have a nice car. This is the one and only car I would have for the lifetime. Red. Flame. Burn. This is why I should be grateful. Talent. I gave up on academics and went for music. Such a beautiful choice. Being the elegant girl on the stage. Stages, suppose. I do not need applause, I do not need attention, I just need to feel. With fingers tingling on the black and white keys. With the white, long gown I wear. Glancing at the love birds. How sweet. Maybe this is what music is meant for -- to feel.

I put my glasses on. Be sassy, I whispered.

"To where?" "I would like to change your outfit.", I said. He gave me that smile. Again. The warm smile that triggers every single beat of my heart. Please stay, please last forever. I switched the playlist on. Moonlight Sonata. Leopard Mozart. He had a pathetic life. His pieces are the best. Adore. That was the song that made my fingers move. The song that made me feel. And now I'm glad to bring the beauty to everyone around. The very one dream I fulfilled. Being the girl. The one and only girl.

The lingering conversation starts."How is your upcoming event? The violin solo in Tchaikovsky's concerto. Don't think you will be nervous. You're used to it, right?" Yes, of course. This is my profession. How can I not be familiar with what I earn for a living? The start was tough. I began with teaching. And then, master classes, and finally concerts. Glad I always have the chance to cooperate with musicians all around the world. Thank God for the great talent, that earn me a whole-sum of income.

Music is passion. "You can't survive like that" dad said. I proved him wrong. Where on earth can you find a girl with a happy, wealthy life at this age, except me, dad? The talent is from my dad. I have his blood flowing inside me. Deep inside, I actually feel something. Something that makes my dreams at night sweet, something that makes me smile, something that explains myself.

I smiled, "you don't say."

Why.

Who How When Where What WHY.

HECO. The place where I grow up.
Joy, Laughters.
Disappointment, Tears.
I never knew how much I loved HECO until things go so wrong.

Being the leader of discipline department
You thought that's easy?
What you have to do is do what you think is right and don't care about haters.
Haters gonna hate.
So this is what I should do?
Yea right.
I didn't give punishment.
I gave warning.
Warnings.
Sick of warnings.
No use giving warnings huh.

Haven't start being strict, and there,
34 letters received.
Thanks for your comments
Thanks for your opinions
Thanks for your hatred.

So you think I like to speak everything to the teacher? No way.
And you think that I do things without reasons? No way.
You said you just need explanation.
Don't you know that I need explanations too?
Explaining everything to the wrong person.
Sounds bad. Seriously bad.
Why don't you people just accept anything?

Seriously, scolding people is just so not me.
I did everything because I love HECO.
Believe it or not, your choice.
Losing trust is so easy that I know almost everyone of you lost trust from me.
Gaining trust is so hard that not more than 10 of you trust me.
Thank you for making me stronger.

Try standing in my shoes and you'll understand.
Hope some day you people will understand.
It's all about love towards HECO.

I just can't accept what happened to HECO without discipline controls.
Trust me or not, your choice. Think about it :) 



I LOVE YOU ALL. I LOVE HECO.

2013

January
Everything was so exciting
First day of school
Most of all, New Life :)

 
February
Busy life for HECO 
Four performance in a month yo!
Best part was receiving AngPaos!
The month I realise that everyone's always there  for me :)
The month I got really tanned



March

Lost a friend
Had the worst result in my life
But then, God is always by my side

Sneak Peak for the camp!
    
The camp where I've learnt that God loves me so much :)








April 
Stressful month.
Concert was supposed to be on 0420
Piano exam was supposed to be three days right before concert
Due to some political issues, everything has changed. 

  Photo shooting for Berry family!

Very sorry to Hiaoberry because you are not in this picture.

Those Days

Those were the days when we went around in class, asking,
Who's your crush?
Those were the days when we formed a secret group,
and set somewhere as our secret place.
Those were the days when we were passing around our notebooks,
Asking everyone to write inside it.
Primary school :D

1027.
Saying hi to primary friends,
wondering, When Will I Meet Them Again?

We were all once naive kids,
We never knew who will we face,
We never knew how complicated this world is.
 Naive.

Everyone misses their childhood, I guess?
Laughing like a little kid,
Without any worries.
Following every school rules
Cause'  we don't even dare to break it.

Everyone wanted to be the class monitor, the school prefect, the anyone.
Anyone with a bow, or a tie.

And, one cute sentence I won't forget.
I don't want to friend with you!
Yeahh. such a sentence.
And the next day, we're still friends.

See that?
But now, everything is so serious.
Friendship ends because of a boy,
Friendship ends because of a position,
Friendship ends.
Because of one, single,small,tiny,particular thing.

 It's all about the past, present, future.
Never let the past affect you.
Live yourself in the present.
Plan for your future and don't be worried of it.
Your choice.

-TrustMe-